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seriously, i need someone to tell me what is love all about now.? isit jus merely talking about 2 people having feelings for each other or is it sthg more than that.? i dont know. i never felt so lost in love before especially when 2 ppl are still in love. i always strongly believe that in a relationship, we nid to trust each other, tolerate, acceptance, understandings and importantly communicating. i failed all those i mentioned. i cant communicate with my *bf, and today, i realised how much *he believe those words, explanations that are coming out from my mouth. i dont know how to go on from here. i tried. i really tried letting *him noe how i feel exactly, wads on my mind, but *he can never understands and accept them. so, here, tell me whats the point me trying to explain myself so much when things goes wrong.? i always thought that ur significant one will always listen, understand and accept unless its sthg too much. i always thought that ur significant one will always be there for you be it happy, sad or angry. but why is it that i seems to have *him only when im happy and sometime sad. when it comes to me being angry, we will end up quarreling.? yes, i admit i shudnt vent my anger on *him but i always thought *he wud understand. but i guess im wrong. at this very point of time, i feel like walking away. *he always says that i solve every prob by walking away and putting brk up in my mouth. yes, i admit i do. and the only reason is, i strongly believe tt a rs arent suppose to be like this. im tired. im really am. i tried hard too, i put in effort too. but will *he believe wad i say.? the thought having a boyfriend who dont even willing to listen, understand, accept and solving those superficial probs, i just feel like giving up. its nt because i dun feel anything for *him anymore but is that i really dunno how to show my affections towards *him anymore. i always have the thought that since we will definitely meet more probs ahead us if we were to last, and now, small probs like these we cant even solve it, den what say those major ones.? if i were to choose, i will really choose to end eve4rything early than keep it dragging. it will be so much harder to part then. and its one of the reason y i always choose to walk away when probs arise. isnt brkin up now better than in the future.? i dont know if i having this thinking is right but all i know is im alrd so out words to explain, out of ideas to try to solve probs. it wun wrks when you only having one hand to clap. and yes, im doing that right now. i hate tokin to *him when probs arise becoz im jus like tokin to myelf. there is no response, no words from *him.! so, isnt it tt im tokin to myself.? im pissed. damn pissed i swear. i have no patience now, seriously. fuck. move on or let go.? im sick and tired of all these rubbish.! fuck off ! |