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okays.
i swear ive never been so fucking pissed before over wad a FREN say abt me.
hahas.
its so silly to be affected by someone hu dun even treasure and appreciate me at all.
but i just cant help.
cant help thinking that such person will do tis to me.
like wad the can.
say wad,
"so sad den come all the way down to find someone to tok to but end up that person shows a face like i deserve everything and get prepare to go out."
hello?
den wad the time i spent with her at the bck of candy bar, nt closing my counter, tok to her, tryin my fuckin much to let her understand, the shoulder i lent her to cry on, let her shout at me but knowing she dun mean it, the hugs, the explanations.
fuck.
these are NOTHING to her.
she dun appreciate jiu forget it le but now accuse me can.
fuck.
tell me how to cool dwn this time.
plus last nite i heard hearing frm someone that she sae i never been there when she is sad, when she needed someone.
den, wad are all the smses, advices, the time i try to take out to listen to her.?
are they like rubbish to her.?
i dun expect her to repay at all but pls la, at least appreciate rite.?
im a human can.
i feel sthg.
and oh ya, tokin about im a human,
can u believe that she actually say that i dun wan to help her so she can be with the guy she love.?
oh pls, im HUMAN, not GOD.
i cnt change tat guy hrt to love her agn, to change that guy so he will treat her like before.
and does she noe that becoz of her, the guy oso start ignoring my smses and calls.?
wad ever it is, like i say.
i dun expect her to bao da wo but jus appreciate them.
jus becoz of one thing which i oso dunno wad that make her becum like tis, thinking tis way,
she choose to treat someone she call as baobei like tis.
haha.
den it makes me wonder am i her baobei once before.
now,
if ever she reads this, she must be angry becoz i noe she gt LOTS to say back and not thinking for others.
say things maybe like, " you oso mvr think on my point. i nvr explain. u oso accusing me."
yaya, i noe all these.
but hey, think on ur self before saying all these.
den if u feel we havent care for u before, den wad is that msg u send to me hary and sebas saying thanks for been there for u, having patience in u and say we are always ur baobei and kor.
haha.
den are all these words are just words that doesnt mean anything.?
she ever tells me that she treasure the frenship btw me and her alot esp after the incident at mac.
but now.?
hahas.
hu bringing this fight.?
tried so hard just to kip in contact with her after she went missing but she refuse to be contacted, den now, she shoot me saying that no one ever care the presence.
den, tell me all these msges sent, calls made are for wad.?
sigh.
i dunno wad goes wrong with her now la.
she no longer the gal i ever noe.
dun say wan to be like last time, the *name* i noe, the cute and happy gals.
hahas.
i think she will be gone for long.
maybe yrs dwn the road, she wud even forget a gal call cynthia as her baobei, the one hu try so hard but failed to mit her criteria as baobei.
seriously, i nvr thot tis day will come.
she not only hurt mi but the rest of the gv frens hu tried so hard to care.
she just refuse.
since this way, let her be.
dun drag anymore.
just end this short frenship.
a frenship i thot was strong but nt to today.
after hearing and seeing wad u think.
hahas.
maybe im jus a bullshit to u.
ok. bye. i leave u for gd.
even if one day we walk on street, you dun wan smile at me oso can.
becoz i will oso pretend ive nvr known u.
well, treasure the frens u think they are really frens.
dun end up like last time, becoz of one useless guy lose the frens hu really care for u.
bye.
and i shall not mention the name.
no matter wad, i shud still respect her as a human, as a fren. |
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